Out of My Vulcan Mind

I'm not sure if it is anxiety manifesting itself, or if it is some need for structure in achieving goals, or if it is a result of wedding planning hysteria, but I have been obsessively planning one thing after another lately. I take so much pleasure in it, but also feel swept up and admittedly carried away with my plans. It is hard for me to stop once I start. And some of the things that I'm planning don't really need to be figured out at this point, and perhaps even shouldn't be... hence the conclusion that I'm out of my vulcan mind.

My fav Star Trek character, Mr. Spock, prizes logic above all else.

Fortunately for me, I'm self-aware enough to know that all of this planning isn't particularly healthy, and I signed myself up for 10 weeks of community ed yoga -- and not the tough yoga for getting fit - the kind for chilling out your body and mind and getting centered (well, that wasn't all in the class description, but it is what I'm hoping to get out of it).

In the meantime, here are some of my recent plans:

1. I have been working on figuring out our mid-term financial plans, in a general sense, and how much money we will need to save in the next 5 years to travel, buy a house, and start a family.

2. SB and I have decided, for better (for our sanity) and for worse (for our savings account), to actively search for a new apartment. We haven't put in our notice just yet, and will have to decide whether or not to do that at the end of this month. Big decision, since we've been where we are for so long and love it despite the fact that we've outgrown it. So many considerations in a new place. Overwhelmed.

3. Because it is more fun than #1 and #2, and was born out of #1, I have been particularly stuck on thinking about the Europe trip that we want to take in the next two years. As of right now we've got the money to take the trip this summer, and part of me wants to jump on it while we've got the savings - that way when we get back we can focus on savings for a house. Also I fear that if we wait on taking our trip we'll end up postponing it and never get there pre-babies. Probably irrational, but you never know. So far my thinking has been a delight, and is focused on France and Spain (well, at least Barcelona, but MAN do I want to go to the Prado in Madrid). Anyway, I became an expert on travel in France in about 4 days... so I need to take a break... but it is so fun to think about... oy vey.

4. I still need to find a new job. Have recently applied for several. No word back yet. Stressful in light of #1, #2, and #3. Ug.

Well, time to switch the laundry. Thank goodness for such immediate needs that keep me in the moment and out of my head. Perhaps this is why cooking and baking, canning, and needlework are my favorite activities - when I do them, my mind chatter ceases.