Drive

You know those days where you're going-going-going all day long, from before dawn to after dark? Somehow that has become my weekday routine. And I can't decide if the fact that it feels good means that it is healthy or if I'm some kind of masochist.

My new job is pretty great - I get to work on a variety of projects with a diverse group of people, all of which culminates in work directly impacting families and communities. That being said, my new job is a sort of maddening experience - incoming calls, emails, people stopping by my desk constantly every day, and there is truly more to do than I could ever hope to accomplish. 

I used to listen to music on headphones at my old job, to keep me focused and upbeat; these days when I put in an earbud I usually listen to two minutes of a song before being interrupted and, by the time I remember that I was listening to music, I realize that the album is done playing. Yikes.

And yet, it is invigorating. I love being busy all day at work. I kind of love jumping from project to project to project - it allows me to help a lot of people each day. There are a lot of small victories. And, as a result of this driving pace every workday, I am more regularly hitting the gym after work and pushing myself there, too. It is a way to decompress, but also to continue to feel this "thriving" feeling, for lack of a better word. It is addictive.

But is it sustainable? That remains to be seen.